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“Dead Air”
I thought of a number
Belonging to one long gone
Pressed in that sequence
But the answer I received was none
A long ago memory
Still can’t let it go
Emotions still buzzing
Desires still warm
Scorned by an action
Impossible to retrieve
A case of bad judgement
When faced with the facts
Swept up in a moment
And lusty oh it was
My veins filled to capacity
Throbbed full of blood
Contextualizing a single memory
Nightmare now it is
Haunted by lost affections
And what could have been
I dial in a number
But the operator isn’t there
Our telephones unconnected
Only my own breath do I hear
Lonely I am, so I embrace myself
And hold on ever so tight
Squeezing, squeezing, witness my tears a-plenty
Spill out they will all through the night
It’s time to recant, to fix this situation
But my chance for that has long since passed
My apology comes too late, for anything to be saved
My sincerity met with disbelief
And so off I go, marching alone
It’s just me against the frigid wind
My skin is so cold, my heart is so broken
And not a single soul to help my own to mend
Regrets: There are so many
Regrets: They are all mine
Regrets: Linger on
Regrets: Refuse to die
Of these torments that I’m facing
What now will I do?
How now can I go on?
What now is the use?
Suck it up brother, things will get better
Summation of the advice I receive
But a solution that isn’t, so onwards I mission
Without a clear destination in mind
Then it comes, the sound of a phone
Could that ringing be for ME?
On second thought no, for too far away is that sound
That purposeful noise means to deceive
But the ringing, the ringing, the ringing continues
And on my conscience it does play
So l answer my own, knowing full well
That my own voice will be the only one I’ll hear
Breathes: Once heavy
Breathes: Now low
Breathes: Staggered out
Breathes: Now few
Shared histories shattered
Shared legacies done
Shared commitments broken
Shared communication gone
A simple tale, about a simple choice
And how it quickly became so complex
Its’ everlasting legacy: a life full of misery
Be aware, be aware, BEWARE!